I’m learning to move backwards. Maybe there I can retrograde my mistakes and make you happy again. Make you laugh and smile and delicately look at me again. Drain these circles we run and be stranded as just the two of us. Maybe we need to be exhausted and drown these barriers between us in order to be Us. Break these levees and weave through my gardens. I’ve been planting new thoughts and words for you. I’m still trying to find right words for you though. This ever moving sphere hasnt evolved enough for what description you truly deserve. I love you is all I have but I hope you can settle with the beauty I’m barely provided with.